I wasn't sure how long it had been since I didn't feel like I was choking from lack of oxygen whenever he was in the room. It might have been when we sat in the marriage therapist's gloomy purple office, and my husband said, "I feel like I am drowning in a river, and she's standing at the edge, throwing rocks at me." I wanted to scream at him. I wanted to smack his face. I wanted to shout, "I was throwing you a lifeline motherfucker!" This was after months of spending sixteen hours a day away from our children because I had to work two jobs to support us because he couldn't get just one. Trying to motivate him, support him, inspire him, help him help himself, but all the while resentment was building up until the Great Wall of China was between us. All because he was "getting ready to get ready", or because he was depressed or unmotivated. And I would come home at night and he'd be sitting in the same spot on the sofa, with a beer...
Wonderful pics!!! I want to go to Paris!!!
ReplyDeleteOh. My. God. These are awesome! My favorite is the wedding pic with the photographer. I don't know why. It just speaks to me. A lot. Beautiful. You are some photographer! I am adding you to my Blogs I Stalk list!
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